Well, now Revohor is gone I guess someone else has to talk about this kind of stuff, haha.
His honesty on things that are rarely talked about has been helpful to me and has given me the freedom to explore things that I would previously have considered unsafe or wrong. I’m not saying that has necessarily been a good or bad thing, but it is something that has occurred.
One of the things that interested me was his posts on photography and particularly the fact that he has photographed himself naked. As a keen amateur photographer some of my interest in this has come from that direction.
So I was pondering the idea of taking some nude photographs of myself. Gasp; horror; I know. And then last night I was tired after work and just wanted to do something chill, but not as lazy as watching tv, so I took my clothes off and got my camera out and went for it.
The emphasis was on trying to capture an artistic (rather than pornographic) nude shot and it was a good challenge. I didn’t find it sexual at all.
You might be wondering why I’m even sharing this…
The thing is when I put the pics on my computer I smiled. Because I saw a man’s body. A pretty decent man’s body. And the man’s body was mine! I’m a man. I’m smiling now.
I don’t know. Maybe I was stuck viewing my body as a 14-year-old, which is the last time I probably really engaged with it. I was a bit overweight, a bit pasty, little muscle definition and it wasn’t something I was proud of.
Today I’m not overweight, I’m a little bit toned and, yeah, it’s something I’m happy with. I’m a man with a man’s body. Smile.
It took some nude photography for me to appreciate this.
So I guess, thanks Revohor, wherever you are. It’s been helpful for me.
I did consider whether it would be helpful to share this, but perhaps there are others out there who have done or considered doing the same thing.
I wouldn’t discourage it or recommend it. It obviously has its risks.
But God made me a man. I’m a man when I have clothes on and I’m taking initiative and serving and leading and learning, and I’m a man when I’m naked and the structure of my body and the muscles and, yeah, that little dangly thing as well, scream MAN!!